What has me in awe of God lately? What has me amazed? What has me encouraged? It’s simply this:
God works through people not because of who they are but in spite of who they are.
Why does this mean so much to me at this particular stage of my life?
Because I am more aware, than ever before, of how irresponsible, ineffective, and inconsistent I can be. I break promises. I forget deadlines. I miss opportunities. On many days, it feels like I do way more wrong than I do right.
You may think I am being too hard on myself, but this is all very true. The gap between what I know I should do and what I actually do is so wide it’s embarrassing.
But with all of my faults, shortcomings, and inabilities in mind, the crazy thing is this: God has been working through me anyways!
Working through me to reach people who are far from Him. Using me to renew people who are disillusioned with Him. Empowering me to release people who want to take steps of faith for Him.
God is working through me in spite of me, and it is one of the most awe-inspiring aspects of His love that I have ever discovered.
Qualifying the unqualified. Using the unusable. Producing through the unproductive.
Why would God do such a thing?
It is at this point where I’m reminded of Paul’s words to the church at Corinth:
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. (2 Corinthians 4:7)
God uses the powerless to reveal that He is powerful. God uses the broken to reveal that He is beautiful. God uses the weak to reveal that He is worthy.
God’s glory is the end. Earthen vessels are just the means.
I’m just in awe of the fact that my broken and busted being gets to be a part of the whole ordeal!