There are going to be some Sundays as a pastor where you're not going to be feeling it. Though you know God loves you. Though you know you should love others. Though you know you are called. Though you know your task is to serve. Though you know you are to work unto the Lord and not for man...
WHAT YOU KNOW AND HOW YOU FEEL WILL BE AT ODDS WITH EACH OTHER.
And no matter how much you pray. No matter how much you attempt to get yourself out of the funk. No matter how much you claim and proclaim every Scripture you know over your life and your ministry. No matter how much you cry out to God to change your heart...you still will not feel any better.
So what do you do then?
Serve anyway. Love anyway. Preach anyway. Do your best and give your best anyway.
The sad but true reality is this,
WHO A PASTOR SHOULD BE ISN'T ALWAYS WHO HE IS, YET HE MUST SERVE ANYWAYS.
Now I'm not saying you should make a habit of this. I'm not saying this is healthy if this is a regular occurrence. But I do know this...
Today, this was me.