Though God is moving mightily. Though lives are changing dramatically. Though the staff is working together healthily. Though doors are being opened surprisingly. Though favor is being experienced abundantly. Though 99% of the work I am privileged to do, I do joyfully.
I AM EXHAUSTED.
I write this not to whine, complain, or gain sympathy, but just to provide an honest assessment of my current physical and emotional state. Involving myself in an extended fast while leading our church community to do the same is taxing not only on the body, but on the spirit as well.
Contrary to what people may believe, fasting is not easier for me because I am a pastor. Confrontational conversations are not easier for me because I am a pastor. Loss is not easier because I am a pastor. Actually, nothing is really easier because I am a pastor! What is hard for most people, is hard for me too!
BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL.
I trust Him to give me exactly what I need when I need it. I trust Him to be for me exactly who I need Him to be for me when I need it. I trust Him to be in complete control while simultaneously being completely aware of my needs.
WHAT GOD HAS CALLED ME TO, HE IS WITH ME THROUGH.
And, that, is all the hope I need.